hello love x

hi

yes aw x

i’m liaM

gReat, you?

if i talked to him, would he answer? x

merr

okay x

you sound surprised

why even I'm boring as frick

what an exceptional pc-er are youU

I love itt

I'm dope

ugh i suck

dîck

I'm joking geeez

pahahhaha

ly merrr

but wait you said same;))

woah kinckŷ merrr

^swoosh merr i love it when people treat my baby with care

I meant dīrty but it's whatever hdhsbsbhs

dunno him but probs

and treat him with care tooooo

łmao kayyy

good good

spare me the details thoo

shshgegeueggw is that the two of you shsvgeheve

HI BABE I LOVE YOU

IM HERE, IM HERE

wowjsvbsheh cute as frick

I MISS WILLIAM FÛCk

it’s been a whole week:(

the fûck even

geezzzz merrr

yess it's hilarious

duHh

heY i’m eMily

pretty obvious hdhschsusbhs

she said put on yo jacket I tell her babes mans not cold

how are you doing ?

why don't scream

I have the urge to hug you rnn

no your neighbour 🤷🏻‍♀️

i’m here don’t worrY

why are you soO happY?

AWH HOW CUTE

ohH

łmao

i’m alright

i miss my boyfriend ugh

oh dearR

hoWw

you been drinking.,?

🤦🏽‍♀️

double 🤦🏽‍♀️

too late for that whoops

what the fâck ya talking bout

whooo

i don’t know:(

braaah

hey im antonia:)

hey

I’m alright, how’re you gorgeous

not sure, I guess I’m just alright. why just okay?

maybe I can make you feel better, remix me?

how are youu:)?

im doing fine thanks:)

hey love, how are you?

hii meR

i’m alright, thank you. :) what’s up?

how are you??

laying in bed, where are you going?

whywhywhyYy

wHy

aW that’s not good x

about what? if you don’t mind me asking

hey i’m emily

awhh:((

i’m sorry, love :(

awh dont crYy

sia is better

okay chill

she doesn’t have to believe you, it’s happened.

i knoww

i’m sorry, i’m just not in the weather today.

oMg

nevermind

hey

meredith:(

mer what is going on

some paGe, scroll up in my comments

what’s the deallll

don’t know

not sure

i wanna cry:(

drama, drama, and more drama.

i want to sit in the bathtub and cry.

i hate this.

you don’t understand how close i am to giving up.

on everything.

i cant meredith. i’m done. i give up.

i fûcked up bad.

he’s pîssed at meredith. i love him so much. i think i lost him.

can you talk to him? please.. :((

can i read it?

i’m sorry i was writing something to william

what’s wrong?

no meredith i’m here, talk to me.

is he okay?

oh good lord

i miss william holy fûck

he’s not even my boyfriend anymore ugh

i want him to be my boyfriend:(

yes why?

no i won’t be:(

but by the time it’s over it’s going to be really late in england

so you better be sleeping

you need to sleep bud.

me too aha

but don’t okay?

oh my

hey mer

i miss him meredith:( a lot.

i’m sorry :(

he left ... kind of ..

not until his birthday .. for you ..

he is still talking to me .. right now in fact .. he does not want anyone to know he is still here ..

he is ..

ofc 💓

yes, only for the 25th tho ..

he is coming back on his birthday because it’s his “favourite” ex’s birthday, also the day they met a year ago .. so he felt like he needs to x

right now is not a good time .. he just kicked off on me ..😔

he has alcohol in his system .. i said something small and he exploded ☹️

does he do that to you ? or is it just me ?

do you know about Izaac ? he got a lil’ upset about him i think ☹️☹️

Izaac’s mum came back and claimed full custody over him ☹️💔

i don’t know love ☹️

he does not hate you 💓

‘m v sure he doesn’t 💓

uh .. what do you mean love ? x

probably on his birthday x

ahh he loves getting paragraphs !!

me too hehe, it has only been half hour hehe

hii i’m kendall 🦋

i miss william so much:(

i’ve already lost my mind.

no cutting meredith.

did you talk to him? :(

he’s talking to other girls and i’m jealous, he’s not even mine anymore fûck

meredith no.

william:(

i hate myself.

he’s talking to other girls:(

thank you:(

i’m crying again:(

i stopped for a little but now it’s happening again.

today was supposed to be our 6 weeks:(

this sucks:(

what guy?

i wanna get him out of my head meredith.

but i can’t.

i cant stop crying.

hi lovely 💓 sorry i could not come on last night, had a show x

hi kitten

i’m awake before you lol

well i haven’t actually slept

but still

i miss you

i’m here

i’m good, you?

mhm

i missed you too

i have billie eilish on repeat and all her songs remind me of lizzy hmph

she’s kinda like a mixed between melanie and halsey. she’s good.

*mix

yeah

i don’t have anyone to spend my birthday with lmaø how depressing

already? that’s cute

what do you mean by ‘if’?

why? what happened?

well where are you staying now?

why don’t go stay at a friends house?

well why don’t you go to his house?

it is totally fine 💓 you were not annoying x

it is absolutely fine lovely !! don’t you worry about it 💓

np 💓💓

AHH MY BOYFRIEND CAME BACK !!! 😻😻

I HAVENT SPOKE TO HIM FOR WEEKS 😩

missed him so much 😩😭😇 ‘m so happy !!

yeah

umm. idk. i’m bad at this lol

slūt in a different language

i got it i got it i got it

curvă

will you tell Luke something for me ..?

tell him although he is going through a hard time, does not give him the right to hurt others ..

thank you ..

^SEE SUCH A DĪCK LMAØ IM D O N E

ugh ffs. diD YOU SEE WHAT JAKE PUT AJSJDJAJ S C R E A M I N G

yes lol

lol

hii love x

i’m about to lose my fūcking shīt on jake i swear

aww x

ill ask him x

he said yes x

aw x

CAN I TAKE MT ANGER OUT ON YOU

wait no nvm

meredith are you pregnant? x

reasons

did you try a couple tests? x

do you miss jake? x

idk love x

go home then x

oh… who joe? x

why?

om the bus?!???

oih

whats your captiin on this postt?

heart lead choker?

oojhh

awwwee

hashsg

awhg

wgat

dadssyy

a paciuii?

ouh

heyya

assk himmmn

I'm julienneee

ooohhhhfgg

hi

lucky you

i’m great

i really am. i’m fūcking great.

did yiu find yiur pacy

k

nothing

I'm tired but like honestly really tired

wbu

can we change the code name

to buttercup

ahw luv

i feel bad for calling her that

the code name before

hm

aw

cool

yeah

mhm

nah

he don’t exist anymore

no meredith. you can’t help me.

okay

cool

i’m not tired

no

i told buttercup i love her but she didn’t reply.

i normally get an i love you back but i didn’t. that hurts.

oh wait nevermind i’m crying whoops.

i love her so much.

why can’t i just have her back already.

honestly. the pain is too much to handle. i feel so weak.

im sorry. i should shut up about her.

well let’s talk about you, how are you?

howcome?

i miss you too.

awh

^^omg i feel how he feEls

hi meredith

i like long ones

if you want

i’m fûcked up meredith.

that was very cute.

i’m sorry meredith. i’m just kinda at that part where i’m kinda mad, you get it right?

it’s still cute and it does make sense

okay well i’m sorry meredith. just tell me whenever i’m getting bîtchy okay?

it made me smile :)

he’s going to move on too fast, i just know it. he’s going to forget all about me.

so whenever i feel extra sad, i’ll read ittt

:)

i’ll shut up about him, sorry. how are you bud?

then maybe you should:(

^okAy listen here jay why do you have to block her?? that honestly doesn’t make sense to mE. you’re already talking to her on here so what’s the difference?

bean loves kitten

yuck i don’t like nick

so where are you staying?

i was okay. but now i’m crāp.

doesn’t matter lol

do you have any friends you can stay with?

i think i just lost lizzy for good

i lost it on her and i think she hates me

she always says she doesn’t mind it when i take my anger out on her so i just assumes she wouldn’t mind this time so i did it and she hates me

i know i’m sorry

bleh nvm i’ve found a way out of the conversation we were having we’re okay now i think hopefully :)

I JUST CALLED HER PRINCESS I DIDNT MEAM TO OMAJSJSJW IM SCREMAING

wow i probably sound like some psycho ex to her lmaø

oh she said i can call her whatever i want :)

you really don’t like it when i talk about her do you?

idk it’s kinda obvious

no it’s fine lol, why’re you apologising?

you don’t need to feel bad kitten

i’ll stop talking about her then

you’re not being selfish

i was gonna go sleep soon actually

probably at 1

53 minutess

what are you gonna do tonight? where are you gonna stay?

aw :( i really hope you find somewhere :((

awww

please find somewhere omg kitten please

idk :(((

what if you find someone to fūck and you stay round theirs for the night

hi i’m gonna go to the bar so i’ll speak to you tomorrow :) bye bye kitten ily

why i wanna get wastEd

ugh fine

no problem

i’m actually pretty good :)

sorry i was drivinG

what’s wrong

did anyone get out the car?

who is it?

:(((

who?

oh shīt :(

is there anything i can do to help?

i wanna sit in a bubble bath and cry:(

hey kittenn

i’m goood, youu?

i told lizzy about izaac lol

hii love x

want to talk about it? x

who? x

no lol

what do you mean? who is the nice man? x

wait did i tell you it’s nearly been a year since me and celia met :’)

celiA IS THE BEST EX IN THE WORLD I LOVE HER SO MUCH she was my first love :)

what do you mean you got hurt? x

and we’ve started to get closer againnnn

of course x

i really want a boyfriend

with whooo

why dont you like/do christmas? x

that’s cute, i think you should

why?

no meredith

:(

that’s 6 deaths in 4 years meredith. it’s fine

kitten it’s fineeeee

meredith it’ll be fine, i promise

christmas is fun :)

i did, my sister loved it so i did it for her

nah not really

my mum broke it to me that santa isn’t real when i was like three lol

crampus? lol

i’ve never heard of that before lol

oh lol

same

you’ll love it, hopefully

you’ll be fine. he better get you presents.

you like presents right?

there won’t be babe

don’t you have a little kitten though?

don’t drink then

my doctor just diagnosed me with an illness(i do not wanna say) and if it gets any worse in the next two days i’ll have to be under care 24/7

but apparently my dad had it around my age too, so i got it from him

oh an illness i could like die from

what a shame. but it’s kinda my fault because i haven’t been physically well either? i haven’t been looking after myself properly? my doctor also thinks i’m anorexic which apparently makes my illness 100x worse

and he said my dad barely survived it and honestly i’m scared :( i also found out dylan had it too :(

that’s what my doctor thinks

and basically if my body temperature decreases anymore that’s when i have to go into care bleh

and because i might be anorexic means my body isn’t strong enough to fight against the virus :(

i have to quit my job too :((

i don’t know kitten :(((

i didn’t see this coming at all :((

whats wrong? x

want to talk about it? x

i wanna cry

my doctor said 1/10 men get it :(

i’m using pc now

mhmm

i miss her

this is hard

hi bud.

no, why would you think that?

it’s okay

i’m sorry babe, wanna talk about it?

i guess soo

we’ll see hah, how’re yoU

okay well i’m always here when you wanna talk. i love you.

aw ‘m sorry. go to sleeppp

whaT that’s so bad for you mer, you gotta get some rest

oh no. well did you take it?

well that’s not nice. next time just take it at your own time okay?

go to jay’s, sleep in your car?

um no idea, what is it?

i don’t know, what about your parents?

oh yikes. do you absolutely have to take it?

what the fûck, why does that even exist? did you go somewhere away from them?

are these the same people who tried to do that the other day?

mitchell’s friend?

well i’m glad you’re safe.

mm that’s a lot of work to go back on there

i’m sorry:( is there anything i can do?

just don’t think about it. mitchell goes to jail next month right? and who is joe?

what happened?

do you want to have christmas? if you don’t you should tell jay

go see him

i started my period and i’m cramping hArd

oh no:(

you suck

how sweet:)

well what is it?

ooH fancy smanCY

hey he’ll love it no matter what

hey, hey it’s okay

hey well it’s too late now

yes i’ll talk to him.

why would he be?

maybe he was just in a bad mood, i’m sure it’s nothing you did

he’s typing weird i don’t understand baha

do you see his typing?

i don’t know meredith

why is he saying you hurt him?

he knows about luke.

how does he know?

oh babe:( im so sorry

oh bud:(

i have no idea.

hey, hey meredith, it’s okay just take a breath.

well who do you wanna be with? why would jake hate you?

wow i meant luke how dumB am i

iM duMb

i’m soRrY

i’m sorry:(

oh good lord meredith. that must suck, i’m so sorry

i’m here, talk to me. talk it all out.

i know meredith, i know. he’s an aśshole. you didn’t deserve anything he put you through. he sucks. but he will be gone soon, okay?

wait, he did it again?

oh i’m sorry meredith:( are you alright?

meredith don’t do anything.

meredith stop.

don’t.

meredith don’t do anything please. i love you so much, just don’t do anything.

i’m here for you okay?

just stay right here. we can talk it out.

i don’t wanna lose you:(

i cant replace you meredith. that would kill me. i love you so much. don’t do anything, please.

meredith don’t.

she said something about mitchell, her dad, jay, and luke.

jay found out that meredith likes luke but she also likes jay.

and with mitchell and him raping her

and she said mitchell and her dad both fûcked her up

can you tell her hadley wants to talk to her?

thank you.

hey babe, listen to me. don’t do anything, please.

i’m sorry bud:( i know you probably wanna go see her and ellie. but it’s not your time, okay?

because so many people love you and you would be missed so badly.

babe i have so much homework to do and it’s all due tomorrow. i need to get off and work on it. promise me you won’t do anything?

goodnight meredith, i love you.

meredith just stay calm, i’m right here. you promised me you wouldn’t do anything, so don’t.

meredith don’t, please.

i have to go to school soon okay, just don’t do anything while i’m gone

okay meredith i have to go now, i love you. please just stay here till i get back

mer are you okay??? don’t do this you have to be okay

meredith:(

william told me what you did, why did you?

don’t do anything like that anymore, please.

why? they can’t take a child away from its mother.

i know you will meredith, but you also need to take care of yourself.

why didn’t you use that money to find somewhere to stay

and are you okay?

babe:(

meredith feeling better?

i’m sorry:((

i’m here babe, i’m sorry

okay well fûck oli. i love you meredith, i’m always here for you.

meredith stop. i love you so much, you don’t understand how much i do. if i lost you, i would honestly give up.

i know we haven’t gotten to talk a lot. i’m sorry. i’ve been so stressed with finals coming up. i’m here now though. let’s talk. let’s talk about everything. i’m here to listen.

they start on monday and i’m not prepared. but it doesn’t matter because they’re only ten percent of my semester grade. okay enough about me, talk to me babe.

it’s cold here too. texas sucks.

no don’t go anywhere. stay here. i wanna talk to you.

hey!!

I’ve missed you),:

not possible x

nO

because I’m amazing 😎❤️